A New Life

The last time I wrote on this, it was a LOST blog. Sadly enough, LOST is over, and I have to move on. Moving on from LOST was hard for me. It was there for me every week for more than five years. It made me laugh, it made me cry. It made me search deep inside myself for what kind of person I was compared to those on the show. And then one day, just like that, it ended. I was left with questions unanswered and disappointment. Was my marriage unlike LOST? Unfortunately, no.

I'm not going to go into details here, but let's just say my marriage wasn't what I thought it was. Not even a little bit. Finding all of that out when you are with child really cuts deep. This past year has definitely been the hardest year of my life. It has been harder than Basic Training and Nursing School combined. Never in my life have I thought I could endure such physical, emotional, and spiritual stress. Never in my life have I thought that my life would turn out like this. Never in my life have I thought I would be a single mother. But here I am. My mother used to tell me "You think you know how life is, and then it throws you upside down". I guess she was right, and now that I am a mother myself, I appreciate her advice even more.

I don't know who is going to read this, and I guess it doesn't matter. I just need a healthy sounding board to get things off of my chest. I am going to always think positive and keep pushing forward. My son has been the light of my life throughout all this, and a true blessing. I know it can only get better from here on out, and I can't wait for that to happen.